at 1 point

DENIAL
ANGER
FEAR
GUILTY
DEPRESSION
ACCEPTANCE
it will get better
you just have to get pass it
and take it all back.
there is no answer to this because this is life!!

some say god is unfair. some say god doesn't exist. some say there is something out there but is unsure if it is god or not. for me, god is god. as long as you know what you do is correct morally then you are on the right track. no god teaches hatred or things that were meant to hurt people. if there is a religion that teaches 'destroy' others then it only means 1 thing which is it have evolve overtime n people tend to add in themselves. it has become not true. my life isnt in a very good shape right now. bad stuff kept happenning one after another. when i thought i was about to heal, things get ugly again. at 1 point i felt empty. its a feeling that i totally cant describe like i felt that i am completely hollow inside. souless and no passion. i started wondering to myself what the hell went wrong that trigger all this problems at 1st. is god punishing me? is god being unfair? m i the only one? what have i turn into? y is this happening? then i started realizing something or should i say many things. this is just part of life. i thought about people who are more unfortunate than me. people who are suffering, people who are fighting cancer, people in africa, people who are poor, people who are disabled. all these people are fighting to live and survive. if i compare my life with them, i am sooooo far ahead more fortunate than them. the problems i am facing right now are nothing compare to theirs. so if there are more problems to come, bring it on. i have no fear, you will need to do more than that to bring me down. choi~ haha of course i wont go and find trouble for myself. i already have a handful right now. anyway for the people around me, my friends and family or the people i met in my life, i just wanna say i appreciate and care for you guys. if anyone of you is at the lowest point of your life right now, just remember that things will get better. it will..!! anyway to my grandpa, i love u and will always remember you. you are a good man, husband, father and grandpa. we are all missing you already. may you rest in peace.