sad

the news came again.
i was depressed.
it got me down again.
to say that i am not, i will be inhuman.
i am angry at myself.
mixed of emotions ran through me.
but the only one that registered was scared.
therefore i ran away.
afraid that the image in my brain turns out to be the image in my eyes.
the quietness would becomes a battlefield of words in my head.
unsure of my presence will worsen what was left there.
terrified to feel helpless when there is no help needed.
what frightened me the most was the eyes that i might not see again.
i pray that everything will turn out at its best.

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if i was in the same shoe, one thing for sure i wont be that brave.
i might even given up long time.
unhappy..very very unhappy *cries*

sometimes i feel that bad ppl should deserve this rather than the good one but i know the world doesnt function this way. so who's to blame?

anyway, this is me emo-ing. the rest ignore everything.