i am out of control.

this post might make me sound rebelious, bad and negative but i dont care. all i know is i m pissed.

i had a bad day alright worse still today IS monday. i got out of bed late today and because it is monday, i need to get out of the house early as there will be a lot of cars on the road. note i din say jam because the cars were moving and they were moving damn slow. not that there's car in front of them that made them slow down. it is just the way they drive here. the one thing that i dun get here is that if u r driving so freaking slow, wat the hell are u doing on the right lane. then if somebody drive so closely behind u already, y not change to the left lane. i wonder if they are just blind or they still think they are in UK or something. then to add oil to the already burning anger in me, this one guy stopped in the middle of the 2 lane road. i was behind him. he was damn kiasu thinking that i might jump in the queue but actually i wanted to turn left which means i dont freaking need to wait for the f*cking traffic light. so damn pissed. nearly got the intention to just bang his car flat. luckily my car is a small car. the next time around, when u see me with a lorry or something, just get the hell out of the way or drive with ethics then everything will be fine.

anyway i reached work just in time minus all the panic rummaging everything in my car for my punch card. hey..its not my fault that it was misplaced. its the person that was sitting on the passenger seat the night b4. super itchy hands i must say.

then when i was back, i got questioned from my mum. i dunno about y'all but for a person like me, staying outside alone and independent for so long already and suddenly being asked question like 'who r u going out with', 'is he a guy or a gal', 'wat is his name', 'wat is he working as', 'r u going out in a group', i tell u, i was offended. i know some of u must be thinking that my mum is just showing concern. i dun need this whole questioning session anymore. i've seen so many kinds of character till i m aware of how dangerous some can turn out to be. i know who are my frens and who r not. maybe i m still always a little girl in their eyes. bad idea if they dont realize sooner that i have grown because 1 day, i might freak them out. afterall i m not that innocent as they think i m. i very well know the cut off point between good and bad. sometimes it comes to a point that i dun feel like defending my point of view anymore because watever that i say, i m always the innocent little gal that knows nothing. i might walkaway and i know i will. wth is wrong with me? is it just me or everyone is having the same prob.

anyway, i think i need anger management because i m out of control. it scares me sometimes, the tot that run in my mind when i m angry. i might be a dangerous person. shit! i should get myself a psychologist to get my mind thinking straight again.