what a job~

i m getting used to waking up at 6.15am now. i cant even sleep any longer than 7 hours on my off days. my brain is set to wake up at that particular time. arghh..thats working life ppl. everyday i go to work i need to remind myself to be responsible in everything i do. i need to know what i m doing and be sure that i m doing it right. its ppl's life that i m dealing with. no mistake can be done. thats what my career is all about.

last week i tried to make ammonia and ipecacuanha mixture. all i can say is i nearly fainted when i m done with it. the smell of ammonia was terrible. really sucky. the funny thing was the assistance pharmacist say that its nice smell and she like it. i was already dizzy at that time and she shove the packet of ammonia to me and call me to smell how nice is it. i nearly died ok. lol.

the workload in my hospital werent that high. so practically we still have time to relax here and there. but i m worried that we cant meet our requirement there. the patients werent that many. counselling also we need to fight for it so that we can hit our target.

anyway, i will be on-call next month. damn scared ade. i hope nobody commit suicide when i m on-call. even if u wan 2 commit suicide pls dun choose to eat a lot of panadol or aspirin. it wont work ok. i will need to save u again. lol. so its better to jump off the building or something. it will be faster and the percentage of u surviving is lower. if u still wanna eat a lot of panadol pls do it in the day la. dun do it at night because i will need to drive all the way to the hosp to save u. ish ish. troublesome. i know spm exam is coming, if u r stress or anything just breathe and take it slow. dun think unnecessary stuff. it will help me a lot. life is short pls appreciate it everyone. even if u r at ur lowest, u just need to let it pass. things will be better the next day because u r already at ur lowest, u cant go any lower. the only way left is up. its true believe me.

kla...will update soon. chao~