more headache~

sigh~~ dealing with problems in life..one hell of a headache..as i say b4 we cant grow if we keep running away from our problem..but once one of our prob is solved then automatically our state of thinking start to mature..we gradually become more strong..ever had a tot of going to consult a psychiatrist?? i think most of us at a point in our life have..i do..not long ago actually..i tot i have gone psycho..there's this prob that i cant solve n it affects my lifestyle..it's like u juz cant do anything to ignore the prob..watever i do the prob juz kept appearing in my mind..but then i found out that watching tv is the only solution i have to make myself stop thinking of the prob..thats when i m addicted to watching movie, drama, bla bla..its juz the onli way out.. but as time goes by..i tell myself that this is not the solution..we could juz ignore it by blocking the mind with a huge wall..so my mind doesnt wonder to that part of the mind..so in other words running away from the prob..i know its not good to run away from prob..but then we juz have to move on with life..i could not let myself stuck with the problem till i can find the solution..it juz mean that u can only go this far..ntg will proceed after that..u will suffer..so y not live life happily..i tell myself to let things flow by itself..and after sometimes i saw the big picture..amazing..juz take things lightly..n change our character a bit..n wah la..everything solve..bcause as we change the character in us..our perspective in life also change..watever other ppl say doesnt mean anything to us it juz how we look at it..thats wat the most important thing in life..well at least in my life..eventhough the person say that u r bitchy n u felt its wrong then its wrong bcos u know wat kind of person u really is..n nobody know's better than u urself..everything happen for a reason..y some ppl r proud..the actual reason is they dun have enuf confident..they are scared to show their true self..that is y when u see them din talk to u its juz because they are scared of u..scared that they will disturb u..or scared that they will look like a fool if they ask dumb question..so they prefer to stay quiet n wait u to approached them..

anyway back to the psycho prob..recently i met up with my fren..she's having the same prob that i once had..n its because of that prob she end up doing stupid things n i mean stupid things doesnt have to be killing herself..but in a way it is bad for her..imagine a-levels 2 final exam did extremely good n the last exam u juz throw it in the rubbish bin..its such a waste because no matter how well u do in the 1st 2 exam..everything will be pull down by the last exam..she told me that she really dunwan to take the exam in jan n prefer to wait till May because she is facing a really huge prob..it affected her studies..everytime she open the book her mind will start thinking of the prob..which is kind of a pain in the ass..all she do is watch tv..n even the prog repeated like 3 to 4 times(u know astro) she still watch..that wat she do all day for the past 3 week b4 the exam..the whole paper is doomed..because she cant answer a thing..its like blank..i myself cant believe that she can dun answer the paper in a final exam..its like flushing all ur money down the toilet bowl..imagine a straight A gal leaving the paper blank..no way..but its true..when she told me her prob..i really think that its a huge prob 2..if she cant solve it she really cant survive in this cruel world..n i m really scared for her..i tried to motivate her but i think its a helpless effort because only she can help herself..i felt so helpless..its good for her to find a psychiatrist because wat the psychiatrist say in 1 hour will really go in her mind..better than i motivate her the whole day n ntg goes in..really scared..hope she doesnt kill herself..dunwan to lose her..70% of me is sure that her thinking is mature enuf to not kill herself..but there's still 30% probrability that she will do..hope she will solve her prob in 6 months time..