A nEw ChApTeR iN lIfE~

Haha..at last, i could succesfully start a blog..eventhough still clueless on how to use it..but will try my best to understand this thing and mastered it in a short time..how long will i remain this blog is up to my determination on making it stay alive..hope it does not bore me..if not..i dun think it will last long..so..as the title goes..my 1st blog..a new chapter in life..which make it a new starts of something special..i've not been myself for a couple of months..i dunno how it happen but its quite painful..trying to cover ur true self..n now..i dunwan to be someone ppl think i m..i m going to be someone i believe i am..often in life..all u hear n try to do is to pleased other ppl..but have u ever think of pleasing urself..especially when u r with a stranger..u tend to please the stranger more than u will pleased ur love ones...this is the true n painful fact of life..no wonder our love ones always get hurt..haha..actually this year i learn a lot of things in life..1 sem..i learn on the brighter site of life...the beautiful n positive perspective in life..in other words..i was living the life i wan..enjoying each n everyday..a total 6 months of joy n happiness...but then i know that all this joy n happiness have a dark site of it..which is now..sem 2..living in a life full of boredness n sadness..loneliness to be exact..found out a lot of the dark perspective of life..which can sometime lead to making a lot of stupid stuff in life..such as taking owns life..thats is y we muz really be strong in our belief so that we can really think logically..anyway..now that i really knows wat i wan in life..i m still confuse over some little things such as relationship..to be more exact friendship..sometimes..it really can hurt u so deeply..u cant sleep, eat or do anything..it juz so painful..i wish i could juz start a new life n erase this memory that i have..wish it doesnt happen in the 1st place